Only God knows what you need right when you need it.
Only God knows your future . . . He knows whats going to happen before it happens.
Only God can truly comfort your soul.
Only God can give you true joy.
Only God can make you into the person you are meant to be.
These past couple months I have been going through something. Something that I have found to be difficult, yet life changing. I have learned a lot just in these couple of months.
All my life I have relied on my friends and all the people around me for joy. I looked to them for acceptance, since I couldn't accept myself. If someone doesn't like me or doesn't get along with me very well, I take it in and make it personal. If someone isn't paying as much attention to me as I thought they should, I take it personal. If things get rough with a friend, and it seems that there is no more hope for the friendship, I let it affect me in a way that I shouldn't. I let it take over my countenance . . . my joy . . . my life.
Over the years I have lost many friends, and in living this way, I made it nearly impossible for me to be happy.
I have lived selfishly.
I never trusted in God like I should, and never allowed Him to be the God over my life. I thought I did. But I didn't. I found that out recently.
The other day, my little brother came back from a youth conference. My mom asked him if he learned anything or took anything from any of the sermons.
He then went on to tell her what he learned. And right in the beginning, he got my attention. God knew what I needed, right when I needed it.
One preacher preached about needing to do things on purpose. Everything we do is a choice.
And we must choose to love God on purpose . . .
Serve God on purpose . . .
Live our life in a godly manner on purpose . . .
I can't remember everything he said. I just paraphrased . . . so even that may be incorrect. But my point is, that everything I do or have done, I choose to do. No one made me act selfishly, or made me rely on people rather than God. No one made me to live my life the way I have lived it. It has all been my decision.
And now . . .
I must choose to trust in our great God.
I must choose to get all my joy and comfort from Him.
I must choose to look to Him for acceptance. (He already has been teaching me how to accept the person he has made me to be. There is always room for growth, though, right? :))
In these hard times that I face . . . I must CHOOSE to be happy. I must CHOOSE not to allow it to rule over my life. And I must CHOOSE to trust that God knows whats best for me and that He will never do me wrong.
Psalm 73:26 ~My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.
Romans 8:28 ~And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.