The Road Not Taken

The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
~Robert Frost

I so love reading other peoples poetry! This poem to me, though, was a bit hard for me to understand. I read it for the first time several years ago but then just recently got the chance to read it again. This poem really makes me think......is it because every person has their own road to travel that it was less traveled? Every body has a choice in life to make....that is, what road they will take in life. It may seem less traveled but that is because it is meant for you and you alone. Though, the road you choose to travel if it is in the Lords will it will definately make all the difference! Once you choose your road there is no going back for the next, for road leads to road. Anyways....thats what I think.

Children; a Gift From God

Last night I had the opportunity to spend time with my little cousin who is about two years old. She is sooo adorable! I believe that each and every child is unique and different; special in their own right. They are so innocent and yet they know how to misbehave. Each child is a miracle sent from God above! When you get the chance to spend time with a little child you realize just how special they are....you can play with them and read to them and they don't judge you...they just listen and play with you back. Her little chuckles melt my heart as I tickled her little tummy. Now I just look forward to the day I get to have a little one of my very own that I can love unconditionally. Children truly are a gift from God. Even as a small child...other children are a blessing.


Precious Memories

Time so quickly seems to fade-
Reality strikes me like a blade,
I feel there’s so much for me to say.
O, let me tell you, if I may…
Of a boy I once knew
That I dearly love all through and through.
Oh, what precious memories
Me and my best friend share,
So young and oblivious and without a care.
Two small children,
My brother and me-
As happy and content as two could be.
A tickle and a laugh,
A tear-
A simple hug to calm and to cheer.
Little hands and tiny feet
Twirling around as the time does flee.
We stuck together in the good times and the bad,
Forgiving one another when one got mad.
Ah, yes, precious memories!
And now you, my brother, my friend have grown-
Now spreading your wings
And are learning to soar,
Going through each open door.
Remember always to trust in the Lord.
Thank you for my precious memories,
I love you!

Suffering in the night

Life is such a challenge....and yet so rewarding. So often I feel like giving up on life and just feel so hopeless, but then God always shows His hand in my life just enough so that I can see that I am on the right path that I'm supposed to be on. He is so gracious to me. I am so thankful to have him in my life.


Suffering in the Night

Late at night I lie awake.
A puddle of tears on my pillow I make.
I am lost within my mind,
That little voice within me I can’t seem to find.
I am lost within myself-
Like a dream within a dream,
But, only this it does seem,
For it is not a dream, but rather,
Reality that keeps a hold of me.
Among the stillness inside of me
There rings out a cry-
The midnight cry of a lonely heart.
Here with my sanity I part.
On goes the ringing in my ear-
A new thought for each and every tear.
It is not my life that I fear,
But only.…myself.
Oh, Lord, please draw near!
So often I am tempted to take my own life.
I get so tired of all this pain and strife.
I do know the consequence-
The punishment for such an act,
I would be no better than a murderer-
A love for all else I might have lacked.
Who am I meant to be?
If only my purpose I could see.
If only I could understand my worth-
He has blessed me so much since the day of my birth.
I am the daughter of the Most High King,
And yet His love I cannot understand,
He holds me in His mighty hand.
How could He love me so?
This, I may never know!
I hear a low ringing- a ringing in my ear!
On and on goes the ringing-
Oh, to me it seems so queer.
In my eyes I seem so worthless
But yet my heart He caresses.
He died for me,
Here in my heart He always will be-
And though I’ll never understand why
I am truly grateful- this is no lie.

World of Roses

Oft times I slip away
To my world of unending day.
A place of undying dreams-
Where the sun ever gleams.
Who could ever find me there?
The place I live without a care....
Here in my world of roses.
My only place in which to escape-
Such a world of chaos
Where all you gain is loss.
Here as I roam in the wilderness of roses-
My mind to reality closes.
Arms outstretched; reaching towards the sky,
All my worries and troubles die.

This poem I wrote was written in attempt to express the world I have created in my mind in order to escape my troubles...I struggle from depression and anxiety and have often felt that I am worthless and just don't fit in....so here it is. The first one above is my original and the one below is my attempt to turn it into free verse.

Oft times I slip aloof
To my world of unending day.
A place of undying dreams-
Where the sun forever shines.
Who could ever find me?
The place I live without a care....
Here in my world of roses.
My only place in which to escape-
Such a world of chaos
Where loss is all you seem to gain.
Here as I roam in the wilderness of roses
My mind closes to reality.
Arms outstretched; reaching towards the heavens,
All my worries and troubles die.

God's Glory

Today was an awesome day!! I had to take tons of pictures today of the Half Henge on campus for a class assignment in the digital photography class. I got to take them right around sunset and the beauty I witnessed was amazing!!! To me, all the beautiful world around me is God's way to reach out to me....Him showing his love and glory down on me. I believe He created such a beautiful world in order to show all the people here on earth of his greatness. So many of us are so used to whats around us that we take all the true beauty around us for granted. I think we all should pay more attention to all the beauty that we have been so blessed with; watch the sunset....the very time of day when God paints the skies. See all the beautiful plants and flowers.....they are all unique in their own way....even the Joshua trees.:) I got to go through all my photos I took, on the computer when I got home ...I could only choose 20 pictures to take to class on Friday and that was VERY hard to just choose just 20. As you may be able to tell, I LOVE nature! The beauty in this world reminds me of The Heavenly Father so therefore when I am going through hard times the great outdoors is my comfort. When I stand outside and feel the wind blowing over me as I close my eyes I actually feel like all my troubles just drain from me. It amazes me....its like my wordless prayer.

An awesome Realization

Today was such a wonderful and hard day all at the same time. I just started college this past Monday for the first time. I had never imagined I would ever go to school, I have a learning disability and have such a hard time in the area of confidence. I would always say...."I can't possibly go to school, that's just not for me. Besides, I couldn't ever make it. Well, just recently I decided I wanted to take a class; something I'd enjoy. Then my plans took a sudden change....(without my permission). I was forced in to having to do full-time school....I wanted to try and have a good attitude about it. I was very scared about the whole Idea....I just didn't know how I would be able to make it. I have been home schooled ever since I was 9 years old.....I couldn't imagine being in a "classroom setting" again, it just seemed so foreign. This past Tuesday I went to a class....my Basic Writing Class, when I left that room I felt so intimidated and scared; I felt so lost. I instantly wanted to drop that class but my parents and a small faint voice in the back of my head told me I should stay. So I decided I would give it another chance. Today was my second class in my basic writing....we had to write an essay in class (I have never written an essay before in my life!). I immediately freaked out.....would you imagine, my essay was to be written on ability and persistence and which is more important. As I was sitting there trying to write, not quite understanding what I was to be doing, it dawned on me that persistence is the most important......at least in my case. I set my mind to doing as best I could on my essay. It may not have come out good or even what was expected of me, but to me, all that matters is that I tried.....at least for now.:) I left that room today with a whole different attitude than I did the other day. I believe that as long as I keep trying and trying I can become a better student....slowly but surely.