An awesome Realization

Today was such a wonderful and hard day all at the same time. I just started college this past Monday for the first time. I had never imagined I would ever go to school, I have a learning disability and have such a hard time in the area of confidence. I would always say...."I can't possibly go to school, that's just not for me. Besides, I couldn't ever make it. Well, just recently I decided I wanted to take a class; something I'd enjoy. Then my plans took a sudden change....(without my permission). I was forced in to having to do full-time school....I wanted to try and have a good attitude about it. I was very scared about the whole Idea....I just didn't know how I would be able to make it. I have been home schooled ever since I was 9 years old.....I couldn't imagine being in a "classroom setting" again, it just seemed so foreign. This past Tuesday I went to a class....my Basic Writing Class, when I left that room I felt so intimidated and scared; I felt so lost. I instantly wanted to drop that class but my parents and a small faint voice in the back of my head told me I should stay. So I decided I would give it another chance. Today was my second class in my basic writing....we had to write an essay in class (I have never written an essay before in my life!). I immediately freaked out.....would you imagine, my essay was to be written on ability and persistence and which is more important. As I was sitting there trying to write, not quite understanding what I was to be doing, it dawned on me that persistence is the most important......at least in my case. I set my mind to doing as best I could on my essay. It may not have come out good or even what was expected of me, but to me, all that matters is that I tried.....at least for now.:) I left that room today with a whole different attitude than I did the other day. I believe that as long as I keep trying and trying I can become a better student....slowly but surely.