One Year

If you were told you had one year left to live . . . what would you do?

How would you live it?

What would you be thinking and feeling?

These questions have been going through my mind ever since I heard the news that my grandpa has a rare cancer that cannot be operated on . . . leaving him with only about one year left to live.

I definitely do not know how I would react to such a difficult situation. Would I fall apart? Or would I stay strong until the very end . . . doing all I can to make that one year really count?

Another question that consumes my mind is . . .

What do you do when someone you love with all your heart only has one year left to live?

Lately, I have been extremely distraught over the news of my grandpa's recently found cancer. I cried just at the thought of life without him when I heard what the doctor had told him.

I always imagined my grandpa being at my wedding whenever that special day would come for me.

I pictured him there when I have my first child, if God ever blesses me with any. Holding him/her in his lap and playing around just like he would do when I was a small child.

I have so many wonderful memories that I will hold onto and cherish forever.

In the time that I have left with my grandpa I want to take in every moment that I spend with him. I want to see his smiling face and etch it in my mind and heart so that I'll never forget it.

I cannot . . . MUST NOT let the sadness consume the time I spend with him.

I want to make this time count . . .