Life just keeps getting better

Well, I just started school this past January...not by my choice might I add. I was going to fall off of my dads insurance and I so badly need my health insurance because I have always had health issues. I did not want to go at all and was fighting the whole way through...even though I should know better considering the fact that I am now 20 years old! My parents, though, have been so encouraging to me the whole way through and never gave up on me. For months I kept telling my parents that I wanted to quit, but of course, they didn't let their daughter give up. I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I LOVE school now! I am actually learning.=) I am now determined to become a writer. A couple of my teachers and several students have told me that I am talented in writing. Well, I mean, my family has always told me that but I didn't know if it was just because they loved me or not. I guess I should just take their word for it. I hope to be able to publish a book sometime in my near distant future. I write poetry which only comes from God...I give Him full credit.

For the last couple of years I have not been living my life to it's fullest, I have discovered that through going to school. School has totally opened up my mind to all sorts of dreams and desires. About 3 years ago I had my very first relationship and it ended in a terrible heart break. I was sure I was going to marry the guy but obviously it did not work out. I grew bitter towards God and basically gave up on living. I stopped doing all the things that I love to do, like playing my clarinet. I used to never give up on anything and was an extremely hard worker...I loved to work. Well, I fell away from everything I knew to be right in the sight of the Lord...I even hated going to church which I have always loved to do. Something inside of me, though, has just recently clicked. I am now back to living my life and loving it! It has only been one week but I am down the right path once again. God is so good! I hope to finish school and fulfil my dream of being a writer. This past week has only been the beginning! Now I live!!!

The Gentle Whisperer

Long have I lived in darkness-
The life in me had disappeared.
I was hardly living.
Too afraid of life
And not getting what I wanted,
I slipped away from the Lord
And betrayed all I knew to be right,
Only adding more to my grief.
Imprisoned by my selfishness and quiet disgrace
God sent me an angel-
A creature of such grace and light…
My Mother; my gentle whisperer.
With such tenderness and care she led me-
Led me to my knees; a secret place of prayer.
Gently her words caressed me
Showing me which way I should go.
Her love for me is shown in the kindest ways-
Leading me back into the loving arms of God.
The sweetest peace I now know,
Overwhelming me within…
A peace I have never had.
I love my mother…
My gentle whisperer.